Metacognition: Netflix and "God Complexes"

Story writing was and is an interesting experience. My raging case of narcissism is fueled perfectly by the creation of a fictional world with characters because it feeds into my "God Complex". During the early steps of story writing process I really enjoyed this idea of creating these characters completely under my control where I control their pasts, presents, and futures. However, I did run into some problems.

I learned that I really did not have as much control as I thought. I mean, yes, I made the characters but their growth seemed to be their own. My main character is torn because he has had to undergo drastic physical changes and also psychological changes in his role but then I arrived at a point where I really did not know what was going on...I stared at the page and confronted my character and I found myself completely dumbfounded.

It is a cliche thought to have a "conversation" with my main character but in a sense I dived into his world and  tried to see how his thinking process and metacognition worked. I've never actually talked to God but I bet that God's just as struck with wonder by his creations as I was when I was writing my story. My little "God Complex" hindered me but I managed to re-simplify my process of thinking for my story. To help this process I actually straight up spent the day watching Netflix. For English class purposes of course. I examined some of my favorite characters including Adrian Monk, Malcolm Reynolds, and Sherlock Holmes. These characters had some of the most flawed attributes attached to them but still managed to succeed. This is the same sort of thing that I wanted for my character. I wanted him to prove something to himself and to grow and I think his growth aided my growth. 

When I create a masterpiece that surpasses Joss Whedon or J.J. Abrams I know I'll probably attribute a lot of my success to my first story, Window.